Friday, August 31, 2012

The Flame

all these thoughts are hurting my head
but this pain is nothing new
it's been with me like a constant dread
even when my thoughts were few

the bubbles froth under the surface
while above is serene and calm 
anger and hate collide in this place
i bleed crimson on my palm

do these ideas have any meaning
none of this ever makes sense
am i awake or only dreaming
this life is just pretense

the flame that burns in me is violent
facing the winds and storms, abashed
once I wished that it was silent
but that moment has passed

now it's all noise and chaos
breaking through the walls i built
this gain will be no one's loss
when the leaves of memories wilt

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

the rain smelled better

the rain smelled better
when we had to go to school
now it's just an inconvenience 
on way to office

there was a joy in puddles
now they just make the shoes dirty
the innocence is lost
the memories are a ghost

future was exciting when we were little
now there is only fear of future
and the tension that no one mentions
of the inevitable, coming fast

is this the life we had dreamed of?
is this all we really wanted?
where are those dreams now?
i want to strangle them to death.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Excel Sheet Sickness

What kind of strange days are these?
I feel as if I am floating
Above everything that I see
I can even see me

My thoughts are flying in slow-motion
Unable to express any emotion
What strange sickness assails me?
Why won't it set me free?

My sense of smell has time-traveled it seems
I can smell chemistry labs and brick beams
The morning smell of sunrise
The evening smell of birds coming home

I remember my childhood like it was yesterday
When the only care was homework and holidays
Now I think about Excel sheets and weekends
Just Excel sheets and weekends
Excel sheets on weekends


Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Bumped Into God

I bumped into God on the street
He was carrying a bundle of typewritten pages
About half of the bundle fell to the ground
And the wind took some of the pages away

I am sorry, I said, even though I was not
What a clumsy old God, I thought
As I made a half-hearted attempt
To pick some of the pages up

The old God just stood and watched
Carrying about half of the bundle in his hand
Stupidly, his mouth moved, making words
But I was not sure if I had heard

I picked the pages the best I could
I said, watch you step old God, you should
You might bump into another one of me
He took the pages from my hand, silently

Skittered away
Without looking back



Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Ghost in the Coffee Machine

It buzzes and hisses
It turns and grinds
It shits out liquid fire
But no one really minds

The ghost in the coffee machine
It spoke to me today
It said words of pain and fire
That I couldn't comprehend anyway

We tried hard to communicate
But we couldn't make a headway
The only emotion I sensed was hate
Anything else, it wouldn't say

Now the coffee is extra bitter
It tastes of desire
And dreams crushed really fine
The coffee machine tells me to resign
--

Just some random weirdness. The coffee machine in office is my best friend.

Pieces


the thing in my chest is broken
shattered into a million jagged pieces
that i collected in the bleeding palm of my hand
and threw in the sky

now we're looking

we're looking at you
watching your every move
watching you grind and groove

you should also watch out too
hey, you
just watch out

one of these days
one of these pieces
will fall like a meteor
through the atmosphere
and smash your skull in
like a bullet from god

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Just Empty Words

You don't have to be wrong
For me to be right
For the sake of this poem
We must continue to fight
We can't keep looking for peace
We will never find it
It's hidden in the past 
But we can't rewind it
The only way out
Is within and without
Confusion and chaos
Misery and mess
Who is fucked?
Who is blessed?
Who knows?
No one does
It's all guesses and ideas
Just empty words

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Found Poetry

A little background: I saw this phone "review" on flipkart, and it seemed pretty poetic to me. So, I divided it into lines where I felt appropriate, without editing for grammar or typos. The end result is this. Very Nissim Ezekiel. Enjoy :) 

5 Reasons why I would buy this phone
Disclaimer :I am pretty much an android user for 2 years,
which makes my review little aggressive.
Any android fan boys out there
please don't be offended.

1.I get Windows Phone OS with all the apps I need,
I don't need my phone just to have angry bird 
or talking tom,
what I need is quality apps which work for me. 

Facebook and Twitter and all other social sites integrated into the OS 
(so I don't have to do to marketplace install their apps which doesn't help much :D ) 
will save lot of time going through apps 
and figuring out what's new in all of them.

Guys why do you need so much apps in market ? 
Are you gonna install 100000+ apps in your phone ?? 
Are you kidding ?

2. In built Outlook Mobile Client: 
I have an android tablet which I use as my alarm. 
Yeah 
its good for just that. 
When I already spent enough on a tab/smartphone, 
why would I not get a world class Email client or browser? 

Trust me 

The default Email Active sync do not sync folders I have specified 
on my outlook 
nor google has a concept of giving regular update. 
Cannot blame them 
for the fact their vendors messed it all. 

So I will be forced to Buy Email clients like "TouchDown" 
which I found the only app giving a good professional Email sync.
In Case of Windows Phone 
We get the outlook mobile itself present, 
and I get to see all my meetings on the start screen. 

I get complete office mobile version which is an added bonus .

3. Nokia build quality: 
The screen resolution is awesome for this price. 
I will tell you why I feel that. 
I recently gifted someone an android phone 
when nokia did not have 710 or 610 
it cost me around 9.5k, from Samsung. 

The screen resolution is so bad 
that I can see the pixels in them :D. 

This model has soft key which even Lumia 710 does not have. 
I would say this phone would have cost 15k-17k if this was released 
1 year before. 
And this looks to have Gorilla Glass.

4.Camera : 
Agree they don't give you a VGA
(oldddd technology) 
front cam. 
However 
at this price there aren't much phone who will give 5MP cam with LED flash. 

Am I talking like a nokia sales man? 

well I have a Samsung Galaxy S, 
much celebrated phone from the Apple rivals.. 
they don't have a flash for their camera. Nor does their 15k phone Galaxy Ace has it... 
guess what.. an entry level Windows Phone from Nokia has it...

5. Fits my budget: 
I would not spend on 40k iphone to show off. 
I am happy to spend for something fits my needs 
and this phone does it and covers my work and social life.

Monday, August 6, 2012

I Think I Know

I think I understand why dogs go insane
Why they howl at night 
Deriding unknown gods with their wails

I think I know why it hurts so much
We live, breathe and die
Just as a vehicle of suffering 

I think I know why we dream
These thoughts bubbles in mind-drums
Escaping into the night, screaming

I think I know why people kill
They want to feel something
That is better than love or lust

I think I know why 
I think I know
But I know not
Why poetry needs to make sense
Why can't we drown in beauty
And breathe in deliverance. 

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Who Cares for Perfection?

let us be rotten to the core
let us never be sure
let us be fueled by action
let us ignore the perfection

we know we'll never attain it
it's a goal we'll never gain it
so let us stop the inaction
and let go of perfection

we need something tangible 
we need something bearable
we need something to hold
we need something bold

but we keep chasing a dream
through the rivers and streams
we go with flow, but we don't know
perfection is always a no go

you can ask why that would be right
because perfection is end to the fight
it's all about said and done
how can you improve perfection?